Laid To Rest...

Ever received some information that made you feel some type of way and you are not sure why it made you feel that way? Well I just experienced that and I am not sure how to feel so I figured the best way to let it go is to write about it.

History in brief...Years of conversation, personal moments shared, off and on communication, deep discussions about life, witness the death of some beloved family members, gained a deeper insight into the mental of the person. But most of this happened over a sporadic period of time with it being inconsistent enough for me not to feel attached or otherwise involved. Fast forward to 10 minutes ago. Message received insert blah blah blah, but the most important thing was "...you probably won't hear from me again..." OK wow, but best of luck is all I could muster. I think that is indicative of the place that I am in my life right where I just let things roll of my back.

So should I feel cheated? Hmmmmmm don't know it's just interesting how things play out. So I think this calls for a 'viking funeral'...if you are unfamiliar, it's where you take everything that is connected to the person and set it ablaze thereby laying it to rest. Since they, or anybody else for that matter, are not worth my cell phone I will just lay it to rest here. "The conversations were great and they were much needed at the time. I hope your life slows down enough for you to truly focus on and make the changes that you desire. Take care of yourself and always move forward... See you in another lifetime, Peace."

May you also set ablaze all of the people who told lies, were deceitful, made promises that they had no intentions of keeping, for making you feel like you were in it alone, for making you question your logic; intelligence; at times your sanity; and forcing you to choose between yourself and them...may you all burn and be laid to rest. I THANK YOU for giving me the tools and confidence to be okay with myself and giving me the strength to cease in giving you the reaction you wanted and in turn GIVE YOU THE REACTION YOU DESERVE. Whoever said you can't be happy everyday....you can when you tell them "I LOVE YOU..." "BUT I LOVE MYSELF MORE!" Cheers to self love.... and may the others rest in peace for you only demonstrated what you've learned.

~feenix