So should I feel bad that I was unable to make them see the error of their ways? Should I feel bad that they insist on blaming me for the termination of our relationship (for a lack of a better term, believe me)? Or should I just be glad that no matter what I don't have to be bothered with it again?
Today, like the rest of last week, I have been in an extensive email conversation with the other. It's been back and forth about why I ended it and how I am a quitter because I "gave up"... Drama right? Well I say I didn't give up I just love myself more so what is the point of staying in a situation where it doesn't appear to be getting better? I will admit that it was a tad emotional only because we detailed somethings about our relationship that could have been left unsaid and I finally learned somethings that I didn't know before, but at the end of the day the result was the same, Cease and Desist.... there are so many dynamics to the story but some things should remain private.
But at the end of the day, you have to ask yourself was it or is it even worth it. Worth it to continue to repeat yourself? Worth it to hear statements that in your heart you know you don't agree with? Just a mess.....
But there is a light at the end of this tunnel and their name is ME... I love myself more than I've ever known, so put that in ya pipe and smoke it!
As my skin bubbles to a crisp and the flame of life engulfs me, my last breath is my first as I rise from the ashes... The spirit is within me....'feenix'
~feenix
The Open Relationship
2 years ago
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So I read this yesterday and was thinking of what I could possibly say to add to this prolific blog you posted. I think I halted after the first couple paragraphs and the booming sense of love and empowerment which I love. But by the time I got the the skin bubbling and flames engulfing I just died. And there were no words that would do you justice here.
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