Today's Post...

Is sad and upsetting and somewhat of a tear jerker...

This is our community...I'm ashamed of it!




Derrion Albert, 16-Victim

Suspect 1 & 2

Suspect 3

The FATAL Blow...

Albert being struck again

Unknown participants

No-one had the will to stop him

Mother of suspect 3 - "Ava Johnson, mother of Eugene Riley, who has been charged with beating to death 16-year-old Derrion Albert on Sept. 24, talks to the media as she holds her son photo at Fenger High School in Chicago, Sept. 28, 2009. Johnson said her son is innocent."
Indescribable sadness...

A mother's PAIN...

A child loses her cousin

A DAMN GOOD QUESTION !!!!

R.I.P. Derrion Albert...we don't know you, but we know your story!

~feenix

Sick of it...Random Thoughts

I'm sick of niggas being the new bitches...

I'm sick of whiny ass men...

I'm sick of needy ass adults...

I'm sick of embarrassing black people...

I'm sick of black who don't know they are embarrassing...

I'm sick of uneducated people (primarily black)...

I'm sick of racism...

I'm sick of people acting as if they don't know racism still exists...

I'm sick of rude and disrespectful ass black children...

I'm sick of "parents" allowing their kids to be disrespectful and RUDE...

I'm sick of the school system...

I'm sick of the prejudice in the workplace...

I am just sick...

~feenix

P.S. RESPONSES FROM FRIENDS BELOW:

I'm sick of being in love ALONE...

A Lil' Monday Morning Humor...

How I learned to mind my own business:

I was walking past the mental hospital the other day and all the patients were shouting "13....13....13!"

The fence was too high to see over, but I saw a little gap in the planks, so I looked through to see what was going on.....

Some idiot poked me in the eye with a stick!

Then they all started shouting "14....14....14..."




~feenix

I Tried To Give It To The Lord...

Our Father, who art in heaven,
hallowed be thy name.
Thy Kingdom come,
thy will be done,
on earth as it is in heaven
Give us this day our daily bread.
And forgive us our trespasses,
as we forgive those who trespass against us.
And lead us not into temptation,
but deliver us from evil.
For thine is the kingdom, the power and the glory, for ever and ever.
Amen

My health...I tried to give it to the Lord
MY CURRENT JOB SITUATION...I TRIED TO GIVE IT TO THE LORD
My safety...I tried to give it to the Lord
My finance...I tried to give it to the Lord
My prayers...I tried to give it to the Lord

Now that I have given it all away...LET's SEE WHAT HAPPENS!!!

~feenix

Epiphany...

So I didn't know what to write about today, and ironically it came while watching Frankie and Neffe. (See below post)

I am all for church and religion (whichever and whomever you believe in; personally I think you should have some knowledge of all religions)but what I am not a fan of is pastors that use the pulpit for judging. (sidebar: check the book 'pimps in the pulpit')
We, meaning I, believe that the church is a place of refuge where you can escape from the trials and tribulations of life and enter a place of peace; freedom from stares, judgment, and condemnation.

Pointing fingers, making snide slick remarks, and blatantly calling people out are not actions that are indicative of a person "called upon" to do good for the Lord.

Of course the Bible, written by Man, is open to interpretation. So does that mean you get to pick and choose which parts to interpret? I.E. Homosexuality is a sin...So is fornication and passing judgment. Last I checked no "1" sin is greater than the other. Or my personal favorite, "the bible says you MUST attend church..." No actually the Bible says you are to fellowship with others that believe and follow the word as you do. SO IF I CALL A GROUP OF PEOPLE OVER TO MY HOUSE AND WE FELLOWSHIP, READ, AND FOLLOW THE WORD...THAT IS CHURCH! But I digress...

Back to Frankie and Neffe. They attended a church close to Neffe's home in ATL, and the pastor makes a comment about not bringing Hollywood to church. Immediately, I could see why they had that sour look. It was an insult. Then the pastor went on to say, I would appreciate it if ya'll would stop all that moving around...and then the "congregation" can be heard shouting AMENs! WTF????

Being envious is a sin just as well as the other ones that are written and unspoken!

Now I was not raised completely in the church, but I don't feel you have to be to understand what church is about and the RIGHT and wrong that goes on in the "house", because some shouldn't dare call it the House of the Lord.

"Get your house in order..."

~feenix

"He woke meeeeee up this morning, I was clothed in my right mind. He did not, let me sleep too late. He woke me up on Time!"

Speaks to your heart, but eases your mind...

As you can see, at the bottom it says send to...
Well I am not a fan of chain letters as many know, so I choose to post it here where an infinite number of people can be put at ease. We all have thought it and we all have experienced it!

~feenix

Don't Forget The Hot Sauce Chulo...

LMAO! This is my favorite episode of South Park...

Now if you have ever watched this show then you know that they "go" on every race, culture, ethnic group, sexual orientation and career field...so there really is no room for being offended...

Check it out and I hope you laugh the same way I do every time I watch it

Click Jenifer Lopez's Name below to be taken to the episode!

Jenifer Lopez
"You can suck my culo chica..." LMAO

~feenix

Makidada...

An Indisputable Bond...


Although the words to the game where simple the symbolic meaning was not. In the beginning of the movie we see the sisters running through a field of purple flowers. They proceed to play the game and recite the lyrics, “Me and you, us never part. Makidada. Me and you, us have one heart. Makidada. Ain’t no ocean, ain’t no sea. Makidada. Keep my sister away from me.” These words provide us with a look into the future of the girls. The words represented a bond that would play out all the way through the movie. A bond that kept them together no matter the circumstance.
Before
They promised each other that they would never be apart. They promised each other that no ocean or sea would keep them away from one another. They promised each other that they would always share the same heart. These women went through more then most of us can imagine in their lives and yet, they kept the promises that were made when they were still young girls. They kept the promises made by that childish game. The bond that they shared never broke. “You and me, us never part”
After

Now I chose to make this my Monday morning topic because my sister is my Makidada. We've been there and we've done that, but in the end we always know that there will never be another like the other. She is programmed in my phone as Sista Ma~ki~dada and that is how we greet eachother. It started as a joke because that is her all time favorite movie. But like the movie, we realized that the meaning was so much more. This is her g-chat status message "just cannot live without my makidada I love you so much, dearly"... That makes me all warm inside!

Her Me

Guess what, I love you dearly as well Makidada.. "ain't no ocean, ain't no sea..."

~feenix

Screw Man Down...It's "Race" Down...A Cultural Embarassment!

Case in point...

I mean really? Is this it?

Why can't I turn it off, when I KNOW I SHOULD!
Is this what it feels like to be addicted?

Frankie and Neffe

Click the "Frankie and Neffe" Link!

Awaken Please...

So will black people finally realize that we are NOT equals and we have not arrived as so many seem to think. Yes you have better jobs, but you don't make as much as the other guy with the same job title and less education/experience.

Yes you have a Mercedes Benz but it will NEVER be the same model.

Yes you can move into the fancy neighborhood and buy the big house, but your "other" neighbors really don't want you there!

You were so excited to finally have a black president and they are doing everything they can to tarnish, disrupt, vote against, and criticize the very thing that he was voted in to do...

Now what kills me is that the White House press staff is saying that the President doesn't believe this latest brash of outbursts has anything to do with race...

What do you think?

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Sunday September 13, 2009...The Final Day!

So when I wake up on Sunday, I am like Damn time to get up already? I had a birthday brunch planned and I had to get ready. Of course I pushed it just a little and left myself just enough time to shower and hit the road! Of course, my sister and dad wanted some cake and WOULD NOT cut it...They insisted that I do it! Cuz I am particular but as I get older somethings just aren't that important and how you cut a cake is one of them. But if you seen the picture below you can understand why they would feel that way. So when I am done cutting what seemed like 1,000 pieces of cake, I could finally get finished getting ready!

Of course I was late!!!!

But luckily the people "sponsoring" the event were proactive and told me one time, when it was actually later. Yayyyy for thinking ahead!

Brunch was divine and I had a ball. It just so happens that the "couple" next to our table was celebrating a birthday as well. It was the guys birthday and his female friend had taken him to brunch! He, the other birthday guy, is 11 years older than I and I guessed 10 years and we all shared laughs and conversation. It was a helluva day and I REALLY REALLY REALLY ENJOYED. And as if I didn't have enough liquor in my system, the brunch came with unlimited Mimosa and Desi, our fantastic waitress, made sure we got unlimited. we got there at 1:30 and from 1:30 to 3:30 we had been drinking...LOL In the voice of Wendy Williams "How you doin'?" LMAO

I went back to the "white house" and took a nap and played with the REAL QUEEN, daughter of Queen Makidada Late, and then prepared to make my exit home. I was supposed to go to the movies but I didn't have it in me!


By this time I just wanted to shower and lay in my bed. Guess you can say:


Happy Birthday To Me...
~feenix

DIAMOND BOY's BIG DAY...Part 3

So it is Saturday morning and I think I went to sleep 4 hours ago. Remember I have a slight case of amnesia and memory lapse. So I go to get out of my bed and my head said "NO! lay back down...slowly" I oblige and lay there thinking how am I going to get rid of this feeling cuz I have so much shit to do today! I get up and pop 2 Excedrin cuz I had a headache that big! (remember the old Excedrin commercials?)and drank some ICE ICE ICE COLD water and took a shot of the "blue stuff" and laid back down. I dozed for a second and when I woke up felt 10 times better. That is one hell of a hangover remedy I created (patent pending niggas) and it has worked time and time again!

I finally get up and look at my place in disarray and decide "it's not going to clean itself..." and I get started. When I am done its time for my shower cuz I have to get moving. We agreed on 8:00am for a start time, I didn't leave my house until well after 1:30pm. That damn "blue stuff"...but its amazing what a hot shower can do! I was ready for the world again! I went to get my sister and fly niece Jazz and we hit the highway. Dad had to get more liquor, mom had to run to the store, we had to get the cake and other supplies and food for the party. LONG DAY AHEAD! We run around and get EVERYTHING we need in one location. Run home pick up clothes and head to the "WHITE HOUSE" this is where the event takes place! We set up and I shower and change. Can't be "TARDY FOR THE PARTY" and we wait for our fashionably late guest to arrive. You have got to love BLACK PEOPLE. Because no one wants to be first to the party, they indirectly give you more time to set up and prepare. And then they all show at once...LMAO, that never ceases to amaze me.

I didn't drink as much and I ate more this time around. But as you know the theme was all about diamonds so we found the diamond encrusted shot glass that I wore around my neck, and every time someone said happy birthday I had to take a shot!

The cake can be seen:

It was elevated on a cake stand and surrounded by 36 vanilla cupcakes!

Food was good, fun was had, and I thoroughly enjoyed this party as well. That one ended around 4am as well! Thanks to all that attended and all that supported. You will be okay with me, at least for another 365!!!!

~feenix

Chick-fil-A Musta Lost Dey Got Damn Minds!!!!! 9/11/09

Operator Keith Singletary

Address
9121 Alaking Ct
C H, M #####
(3) 324-9515

So let me tell you why I decided to blast one of my favorite restaurants. Now I am a die hard fan of chick-fil-A because they have the bomb fresh breast chicken sandwiches among other things. So for my intimate cocktail party for my birthday I figured they could provide the food.

So being proactive I researched and placed the order on Tuesday September 8, 2009. After running around Friday, early evening, we got to chick-fil-a 15 minutes early. Pick up time was 7:00pm. Now on the way I had been calling and calling and no one answered. We arrive and I seek out the manager to retrieve my order. He goes "...what order..." I instantly hit pissed off! And I am thinking here go some ole Koon shit... So I explain the situation and he says let me go check on it. Fine!
He comes out and says that he doesn't have an order for me so luckily I bought my order with me and the person that took the order. He takes it to the back and I assume gets his staff started on it. Oh now I have to wait for you to put together and entire order that feeds 30+ people? Koon are you crazy? In the midst, he rings up the order that totals $186.56 and I say I have two issues before I render payment, do you want to discuss them here or would you like to step to the side?

Now if you've been to chick-fil-a on a Friday then you know it can be crowded. So I repeat myself because he is looking confused! And I say again, do you want to discuss them here or would you like to step to the side? The customers turn and look at me and then back at him with the expression "what you gonna do, cuz I don't think he is playing..." so the manager says lets step to the side.

Issue #1 you want me to pay for food I haven't seen?
Issue #2 You want me to pay full price for your fuck up!

At this point I am beyond pissed and 5 miles past pisstivity (word?)Now remember I am with 2 of my sisters and we are all time bombs waiting to explode. One is calmer than all, then its me, and the last one is a storm that once gets started you gonna have to ride the wave until its over.

Fast forward to the end, we got our food, some cheesecake (which is actually pretty good) and some extra food, after I had to show part of my natural black ass because you have people in managerial positions who don't know shit about business and customer service. Fuck that...I think I am going to lead a protest of Chick-Fil_A at Steeplechase!

Got me WAY'FD

~feenix

Friday September 11, 2009...It's MUTHFUKKIN Official! Day 2

Go Go Go GO SHAWTY IT'S YA BIRTHDAY, WE GON' PARTY LIKE ITS YA BIRTHDAY!

It's my muthafukkin day and I didn't do a damn thing that I didn't want too! Ya HEARD!

So I drag myself outta bed kicking and screaming cuz I knew I should have taken off work because after fukkin around with Kels, I needed a mental health day. But I learned a long time ago that you don't take your birthday off because you won't receive the cake and gifts from your co-workers that they surprise you with. You take the day after your birthday off!!!!!

So again I am at my desk making calls and lining up schedules because once the clock strikes 4:00pm it will be CRUNCH TIME! I have to zip down the highway, scoop my sisters, and then begin the errands for the night. Errands include, grocery store, dollar store, liquor store, party store, CHIK-FIL-A (which will have its own blog)and CLEANING MY HOUSE! So much to do so little time because party #1 is scheduled to start at 8:30pm. So I scoop my sisters and we run to the shopping strip close to where they reside and one of my sisters suggest that we split up and knock out as much as we can. Good Idea Sis! I needed to run across the street to get something blue to wear (since that was part of the theme one item of clothing/accessory must be BLUE!) and I decided that I would get a white T-shirt and wear a pair of blue chucks that I already own. But when I walked into the store I seen the ULTIMATE BLUE accessory in a pair of NIKES. Now everyone knows that I am a shoe and sneaker freak so what would make this episode any different. They were a pair of just released Nike Blazers with Scuba Blue Suede and Royal Blue sole and checker patterns with a white Nike sign...Needless to say I had my something Blue and a Birthday gift to myself!!!!

I fast forward to finally getting home and deciding how we are going to tackle my home. My sisters go to work and I must say I am quite happy with the finished product. My living room has much more space because they brought my vision to life. What do people do without sisters? UGH! I would hate to think....

Now I am dressed, fresh like a million bucks threw on my vanilla powder and all blue chucks (aka nike blazers LOL) and was not going to be "Tardy for the Party"...

By this time my parents arrived and when they got in my mom had a little snack and then she opened up the bar! And when I say the drinks started flowing and we started partying that would be an understatement...

The themed drink for the night was BLUE MOTORCYCLES... and when I was done I rode off into the sunset of amnesia and memory lapses LOL But whats more funny is that when I looked behind me I realized I wasn't riding alone LMAO!

Around 4am after the cops came and everybody was drunk as a skunk we decided to call it a night. And oh what a night it was. Somewhere in between my cup being refilled and me father and I performing our own rendition of "Didn't I Blow Your Mind" by the Delfonics I earned a couple of Dollars stripping!

This is how my counter looked:


Shout out to the Crew:
BEE
Jarv
Kirb
Q
Black Cherry - The Photographer
Mont - The Entertainment
Diva - The Bartender from the M***
Pops - The DJ
Queen Makidada Late - The Boss!
Keesh
Rob

The people mentioned above made my night VERY SPECIAL, and for that I will always be fond of you!

Love,
~feenix

Thursday September 10, 2009...The Beginning!

So it is the day before I was officially introduce to this crazy world as APHJ...

I am at my desk putting together the final touches on my Birthday Bash Celebration weekend, cuz you know without a plan SHITE will fall apart. And even with a plan SHITE don't go right but you can adjust better when you have a clear picture of what you want to do and what needs to be done. BUT I DIGRESS... Back to my desk and I am talking to MY VERY GOOD FRIEND Kels, who is doing her thang in NY/NJ, on _____chat and she out of the blue says "...hey how about Happy Hour..." so I'm like wait a minute, "Are you in town..." and she was like yes just for the day. I felt so special, because who wouldn't have thought that she came to spread some birthday cheer. Yes she handled some other business while in town, but Happy Hour was on her in honor of my earthday!

GO GO GO GO SHAWTY ITS YA BIRTHDAY, WE GON' PARTY LIKE ITS YA BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!!

So the plan is to meet up at Jordan's 8 a nice little fusion spot that is quaint yet very effective if you want ambiance, atmosphere, chicness, sprinkled with a dash of bourgeoisie then THIS IS DEFINITELY THE SPOT!

We sat on the rooftop deck and had lemon drop martini's until we couldn't lemon drop no-more! Ate sushi (sidebar: Have you noticed the "new blacks" where sushi is like a staple, whereas not too long ago you couldn't get black people to even think about trying sushi...see what "arrival" will result in?)had fillet Mignon sliders and crab cakes...YOU HAVE GOT TO LOVE KELS...oh it gets done right!!!

Will always be very fond of her...In another life she would be my wife, but for now I will accept her as a VERY DEAR FRIEND!

~feenix

Can I Rest Now...?

Dear Faithful Readers,

Please be patient with me. I just had my birthday celebration. And I have drunk so much liquor in the last 96 hours that you can probably light a fire with my spit. So let me rest and pull it together and I will bring you plenty of stories and entertainment the way only feenix can...

"May the spirit of the feenix be within!"
~feenix

8 Days and Counting...

So I am getting excited and come to find out so is everyone else! I mean my family throws a party and everyone that attends has a wonderful time. I mean I love my family to death and I am fortunate to be close enough to my parents to be able to party with them and have a good time! They invite their friends and I invite mine and we all party together. So we have 8 days until the big day and 9 until the Ultimate Virgo Birthday Bash where DIAMONDS ARE FOREVER...

So to all my family and extended family(my new term for close friends)I look forward to a wonderful day and time. There will be plenty of good food and PLENTY OF LIQUOR so bring your sleeping bags because the #1 Rule is if you are too drunk to drive you have to stay! Look at it as one big sleepover! LOL

With much Love...

~feenix

Tell Me What You Think....Of Whitney's New Album

You can listen to the entire album here...
http://www.bet.com/music/newreleases/470028

So I've Picked Out My Birthday Cake...

And I must say it is quite the statement. It was exactly the kind of cake I wanted so I am thankful to my sister for suggesting the place, Very thankful for my mother because she was willing to drive there and pay for it, and thankful that my family cares enough to ACTIVELY participate in the planning, organization, and joining in the festivities.

We(my family) love a good party! And we like to share the joy. How many of my loyal readers can say that they party with, AND ENJOY, partying with their parents!!!

So the countdown begins 9 days till the Actual Day and Pre-party and 10 days till the VIRGO Showdown!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!

~feenix

When Do You Take Them Seriously...

Ok so I have been dealing with the not so sane...

So recently they have said things like "I can't live without you..."; "If I can't have you no-one can..."; "I have had thoughts of doing things..."

So I'm like WTF????

Now by no means am I a punk or scared but statements like this have to be taken seriously. Wouldn't you agree? I'm a firm believer that behind every joke is TRUTH!
Now no matter how INDIRECT they were...Shouldn't these still be viewed as threats?

Never have I been one to ignore the obvious (at least not for long periods of time) so I have to keep my eyes open and be very observant and try to place myself in the best possible position.

Cutting them off cold turkey may push them over the edge. So I guess this is one of those times where you have to keep the dangerous close to you..if only to watch their every move...

No Crazies Allowed!
~feenix

Better Off As Friends...

Sometimes you have to know when positions and relationships change...

You need to refocus and evaluate the position people play...

Somtimes lovers are lovers for a moment...

When does their position change?

Sometimes you have to listen to your gut...

And stop listening to your heart..

Sometimes you know the right thing to do...

But why is it so hard to?

When the happiness fades and the relationship feels like a task...

Then this might be the confirmation that you need.

Everybody can't be everything to you...

And the love that you feel for them doesn't have to be thrown away.

But the position that they currently hold may have to end

And sometimes you are just better off as friend!

~feenix

My Daddy Sent This To Me...

Does it speak to your heart?

STONE

TWO FRIENDS WERE WALKING
THROUGH THE DESERT .
DURING SOME POINT OF THE
JOURNEY, THEY HAD AN
ARGUMENT; AND ONE FRIEND
SLAPPED THE OTHER ONE
IN THE FACE

THE ONE WHO GOT SLAPPED
WAS HURT, BUT WITHOUT
SAYING ANYTHING,
WROTE IN THE SAND ,

"TODAY MY BEST FRIEND
SLAPPED ME IN THE FACE . "

THEY KEPT ON WALKING,
UNTIL THEY FOUND AN OASIS,
WHERE THEY DECIDED
TO TAKE A BATH

THE ONE WHO HAD BEEN
SLAPPED GOT STUCK IN THE
MIRE AND STARTED DROWNING,
BUT THE FRIEND SAVED HIM.

AFTER HE RECOVERED FROM
THE NEAR DROWNING,
HE WROTE ON A STONE:

'TODAY MY BEST FRIEND
SAVED MY LIFE'

THE FRIEND WHO HAD SLAPPED
AND SAVED HIS BEST FRIEND
ASKED HIM, 'AFTER I HURT YOU,
YOU WROTE IN THE SAND AND NOW,
YOU WRITE ON A STONE, WHY?'

THE FRIEND REPLIED
'WHEN SOMEONE HURTS US
WE SHOULD WRITE IT DOWN
IN SAND, WHERE WINDS OF
FORGIVENESS CAN ERASE IT AWAY. ;

BUT, WHEN SOMEONE DOES
SOMETHING GOOD FOR US,
WE M UST ENGRAVE IT IN STONE
WHERE NO WIND
CAN EVER ERASE IT'

LEARN TO WRITE
YOUR HURTS IN
THE SAND AND TO
C ARVE YOUR
BENEFITS IN STONE.

THEY SAY IT TAKES A
MINUTE TO FIND A SPECIAL
PERSON,

AN HOUR TO
APPRECIATE THEM,

A DAY
TO LOVE THEM,

BUT THEN ,

AN ENTIRE LIFE
TO FORGET THEM.