I don't know if it is the weather...
I don't know if its my hormones...
Or if it is the deconstruction of the ice tomb I subconsciously built around my emotions...slowly melting away.
But today I am a walking ball of emotions.
I kinda raised my voice and got mad at my mom last night because I felt like she was defending my sister in the argument we had. I feel like I am expected to always be the good guy and to turn the other cheek. (Last I checked I wasn't Linda Blair and this ain't the exorcism so I am running out of cheeks)
But I know when something is really bothering me because I can't stop thinking about it and I have to address it in order to feel better. So in writing the post for my sister this morning I began to cry...and kept crying. These were silent tears but I guess I am just hurt. Are these bottled emotions that I can't explain?
As the rain outside cools and cleanses the earth, the tears inside, flowing out, are cleansing my soul...
Check out the song that was playing while writing this post..Never heard of it, it just showed up in the rotation! Symbolism...
I'm sorry mother...
~feenix
The Open Relationship
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1 comment:
you know you can only take so much and you shouldn't be expected to keep turning those cheeks. it's not fair and shouldn't be expected. It's funny that I had a similar experience with a friend. i thinks the seasons are turning for this one. time will definitely tell.
Grow from this and you will be better!
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